Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Gift from Ling - 31/12/08

Today met ling and Eve before my friendly match with NUS...

LIng gave me this gift... like a post christmas cum new year gift.. haha...
Check it out! A cute, and ever random luggage bag tag...



A nice little letter of wishes from her...



Her drawings really not the best... but it is more than enough to bring out a smile in me... Good Effort!

Mum concern cum query.. - 31/12/08

just now while saving the pictures of Soo lan's uploading... mum just so happened to come by and peek around... and out of nowhere she mentioned abt "Hey, who is that girl in the picture?!"

then things like... "just now, who and who was asking... then desmond got gf already or not... "

oh gosh... again those few same old questions...
and my same old answer "dont have ... just dont have lor... "

Irony in life... as always...
remembered in secondary school... what she say would be "boy ah, now must study, dont anyhow make what gf hor... "

and now... "why no gf... "
Things in life is such that the more u ask for it, somehow it doesnt just come ya...

So Mummy ah... maybe your boy boy not attractive enough yet in any way to allow any girl to fall for him yet... Hai....
and back to the normal saying of mine... "if its meant to be, its meant to be.. "

pls pls pls - 31/12/08

today i went to a chinese medical clinic for my injured leg...
Not exactly a super serious one, but definitely one to be concern for me since.. IVP is just next week...

initially i tot the whole procedure would be a simple one... just a normal accupuncture and stuff... well, i did tui na first... and my oh my... when the shifu hit my main nerve (that was giving my the problem)... i could feel the PAIN!

well, not that i could not tahan... it was managable most of the time...
after the session, my legs were a bit weakened by it sia... and kinda wobbled a bit... but i know its normal...

well, tml is new year eve... and having a friendly with NUS...
Hope we have a good showing ... and my leg is better to cope with the running ...

Christmas exchange - 31/12/08



Got this "3 in 1" present from Jasmine on sunday... after our poly attendance to huili's wedding lunch... She wrapped it so big... that all of us were hoping to avoid getting it... haha...

though i was the 'unlucky" one in the end, i tot the gift was great!
got a stool.. plus a towel set... and a cushion... what can i ask for sia...

Monday, December 22, 2008

Fat or Stronger? - 22/12/08

Hmm... recently i found out that my weight have hit the 60 kg mark!
My first reaction was "WHAT! Have i gone fat?" Ironic is that just hours before that, Seth was even commenting to me that i looked have gone thinner!

So have i or have i not gone fatter?
Or is it that my workout in recent months have actually shown results in terms of muscles mass? hmm...

On saturday was the 3rd and last lesson for my BEC Course (Basic Exercise Course)
Seriously, i was not expecting much from it... Previous lessons was not very much interesting by the respective instructors... That impression was so deep on me that i almost feel asleep just 5 mins into the class... However, soon I became more and more alert. The instructor for the day was named David Ho. Well, he started to tell some story and his personal experience on top of the class syllabus...

That caught my attention and that also made the class much more interesting. At the end of the class, I was glad that i did not think of skipping the class. For BEC, somehow, we could actually learn the theorical things from the book by ourselves.
The classes was made probably out of formality. Anyway, was glad that I managed to get David's email. Who knows i might need some advice from him in the future...
and he happens to be a colleague of Jamie too! haha... What a small world yeah...

Friday, December 19, 2008

Couple Not Married - 19/12/08

Just now when i got back home from a day of training and work at gym... I saw this middle aged couple at bus holding hands...

well, at one look, I tot "Wow... they must have love each other a lot.. rarely do husband and wife do this at their age"

Little did i know, moments later, the lady drop off the bus, saying goodbye to the guy... it was then did i realised that yup, they are a couple but not yet married...

Now that's another amazing thing... Being single till their age, and being able to find a bf/gf... though its kinda odd (given that i do not encounter this often..) but yet sweet...

Hmm... come to think abt myself... what will happen in the coming years? will i remain as it is as of now? will i find one soon? or find one in many years to come?
or like what Huili say when i happen to meet her a few days ago and questioned about my relationship status... ... "Hey, you want to wait till 35 years old then can apply for flat for people who are single ah?"

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Cape No 7 Song - 18/12/08

Listen to the songs in my blog... dated at 18/12/08...

Songs i heard in the movie from Cape No 7... Nice... !

Movie Half Marathon ??? - 17/12/08

First time had a Movie half marathon ytd... Went with Liling to watch 2 shows at one shot... at different places... haha... Saw The Day the Earth stood still first... Suck! the plot was quite draggy, lack of climax and excitement...

But there's was 1 funny scene though... but not from the show, but when Liling closed her eyes, when there was a scene in the show where the surgeon had to operate (he started to cut open using the surgical knife... ) on the "alien" (Keanu)... haha... it was nothing much and she tot something grossed will come out of it...



After that, i sms Weiling to ask her about Cape No 7 show... Highly recommended by her and surrounding reviews... both of us went to Cathay to watch from Marina Square.. haha... and i found out something new as a result... That Cathay allows customers to buy tickets of other locations.. Cathay timing was late at 9plus pm... so we got Ang Mo Kio outlet in the end.... Had to rush a bit... from Dhoby Ghout to AMK... had to sneak it some food to fill up out stomach...

Anyway... Cape No 7 was good indeed! In a way, there was 2 stories in one movie itself... well... You have to watch it yourself to understand my point...
Scenes were funny.. especially this old guy who just like to "show" on stage even if he is getting himself a small role...





This was the old man who tried means and ways in order to perform on stage...
Just like a child who yeans for attention!!! haha...


The whole band was formed after a long process... ....

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Another new cap - 16/12/08



A new cap done!
This time it was my customer's brother who wanted me to do it for him. and originally, this customer of mine was my brother's friend. keke...

I so happened to pass the cap to his brother that night, and that night itself he added me on msn and wanted me to do one for him too. His request is different and a bit simpler than his brother... keke...

Friday, December 12, 2008



Chaota... what a nickname to have...
Have a gym staff friend whose nick is Chaota... haha.. and she's proud of it too..
was drawing my designs for this customer during my shift with her...

in the end, i drew an extra "Chaota" out of randomness.. .haha...

Sad news - 12/12/08

A few days ago, i heard 2 sad/bad news in 2 days straight...
reminds and show how fragile how life can be at times...

Shows at times, why we are fighting hard in life... why we have to make good use of our time and work towards something that it is worth.

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Change my room outlook - 09/12/08

Finally made the decision to get my hands dirty and resorted out the layout of my "room"...

Those who knows about it know that my room is located in the living room ...
I am living with my grandma along with my family... 3 rooms, 1 is grandma room, 1 for parents, the other i gave it to my bro... while i took a space outside the living room... and shifted my bed, cupboard, study table out there...

after a year, i decided it was time for a bit of change... so i reshuffle the cabinet, cupbards and tables around... took about 3 hours to do it...

Monday, December 08, 2008

New DIY product - 08/12/08

tonight i just completed another new addition to my list of DIY items. well it was done for a customer who is getting it for his friend.

Comments any???

Friday, December 05, 2008

Floorball Camp - 5/12/08

Was away for Floorball camp for the last few days.
I missed most of the 1st day because of my Finishing Touch fine dining which was held in the afternoon. I didnt want to bring my formal clothing to the camp, so i decided to head to the camp only after the dining.

By the time i reached school, it was already 8plus pm... The guys were still on their way back to school from training... Anyway, the 1st night was slow... A group of them decided to open a "gambling den" playing poker while another played bridge... i and others simply stayed in the room roaming here and there... haha..

it was only about 12am that all decided to head for tau huay together. After that, the guys decided to play CS.. Was quite a cool gaming session though i was quite irritated intially by my com not having able to load in... 11 v 11...

Back at campus... everyone lobo for a while... till someone mentioned about this hotel626 website... I didnt know what was it and queried about it... this then... they mentioned that it was scary website where its a one-person player trying to escape this hotel in it... then they challenged me to do it... well.. i was a bit apprehensive at first... but tot why not... since they will be with me... gosh.. in the end, Seth connected his laptop into the big screen in the seminar room... SUCK!

Anyway, luckily Xuan Wei did not play before too and we dragged him to play it with me... In the game, we were supposed to go through several stages, using clues to solve puzzles.. At one stage, it was at a toilet..where the player had to "search" for the ghost lady and took picture of her using the camera on hand.. That was a stage where we did most screaming and frustrating cos we could not take the picture properly.. haha... i remembered screaming out loud when we managed to take the pictures and "killed" the lady... (cos her bloody ugly face came out of the dark... yucks... )

Not long after, most of us went back to sleep...

For 2nd day, we did this 80s no NG game... it was a simple bonding outdoor games session. We ended it with a water bomb war... At one time, i nearly got myself injured unneccessarily... thankfully, i just missed the field tap by a few cm when i was runnning ard the field...

We had another training session at Valhall in the late afternoon.. and stayed on to watch the girls team played against SIM after that... KFC for dinner wasn't that good... guess i didnt had such oily stuff for a long time... my stomach wasn't that well at night.

One incident pissed me a lot when i and a few guys joined the girls for their meal at night... we were at a nearby food centre where i wanted to order fruits instead of eating any thing else.... One of the auntie serving the counter was super damn loud in her voice... which reminds me of how my grandma's speaks during her peak days... i dont know if she didnt mean it that way.. but her voice projection and attitude tells outsiders another side... I was not happy with the way she treated her customers and even to her colleagues... too bossy and irritating... she would definitely be a black horse among the nice servers at that food centre...

Back at campus, all of us gathered together for a bonding session... we were split into 2 groups... guessing and drinking... till around 4 plus...

Next morning... the camp ended with team talk among ourselves... and i lost my sleeping bag cover!!! suck... who took it.. !

Friday, November 28, 2008

Crap! - 28/11/08

Crap Shit! Realised 1 month never touch this blog already...
shows how much time has been spent in sch for me during this period of time...

Nights when i was still in school, msning ppl that i have yet to reach home...
Days when i had to wake up early.. not forgetting having a late night sleep the previous night..

Oh well, tml is the last day... at least for the sch term once my paper is over...

so what's ahead of me.. hmm...
Training with Floorball... Gym work... Gym course... and... another HR project challenge i took up...

shits... is this really holiday ... again as usual, nvr giving myself a proper break... and i was reminded by a friend abt it recently...
and as usual.. the reminder of me being a lor soh guy... a protective guy... hmm... and one who thinks a lot... hey hey.. can't help it lei... not that i want to ...

and ya.. next term may be even more busy than this time.. really damn shit!
5 modules... peer helping training.. not forgetting taking up another part time...
what the crap! what have i done to myself... i need someone to save me from this... haha...

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Nothing much.. - 25/10/08

Sometimes, dont u feel a bit tired about things here and there... that u feel like dropping everything... letting it go and dont bother with it.. how nice if everything, an answer of "I dont know" can settle it...

BLEH!!!!

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

I don't know - 14/10/08

Hmm... suddenly im back to the "i dont know" stage...

Back to figuring out on studies... floorball.. this and that... bleh...
still quite a bit of things to ponder and plan again ...

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Cute Prof - 4/10/08

On thursday, I had a mid term test on a module. It was not super difficult, but most of us had difficulty interpreting her question and the lack of time. Though i managed to complete it, I did it in a rush and i had to assume some of the information that the paper was asking.

Anyway, the main highlight was after the test, we had the same lesson the next morning. So between one night of time, a few of her students actually emailed her, complaining that it was difficult, that they are depressed over it...

After which, she actually took the effort to email all of us (3 classes) that she didn't in any way want to make it a difficult paper and tried to encourage all of us. In class, she raised the issue again and from her expression, it seems that she is much worried than some of us (like me) about the matter. I guess she is the first prof i have seen so far who is concerned about her students' feelings. Cute sia... but yet a bit redundant.

She did reflect and say that maybe its the singapore "kiasu" culture that caused such reactions from some of them... which i totally agree... Reflecting on myself, i did not even sweat a lot prior to the test, i prepared my notes as normal and just try to keep myself as calm as possible. Its a module where if u know, u know.. not something that can memorise or prepare overnight. Im even surprised by myself on how im treating towards test. It is a lot more calmer and i guess i can lessen my stress a bit too.

anyway, she off to London for her own Phd exams for the next 2 weeks. So good luck to her!

Scary - 4/10/08

a few days ago, nearly kena accident man...
was walking past the carpark when i was hearing MP3 and trying to dig out some stuff from my bag... I saw one side of the road, but neglect the other side. Nearly without noticing the car, i stopped my track just on time.

Though it was slow moving, i could have a broken leg by now if i wasn't careful.. oh well, i wasn't careful in the first place.

Suck... Keep scolding myself... i definitely would not wanna end up in hospital for such a thing.

Friday, September 26, 2008

To be... - 26/09/08

To be the best i can...

To be the best grandson,
to be the best son,
to be the best friend,
to be the best colleague
to be the best bf,
to be the best husband.
to be the best in whatever role im in..

Achievable?

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Such a long wait - 21/09/08

After so many years... i believe its coming to 9 years already...
Finally, after a look search, I believe strongly this time that this is it...

Pls lord... let this time really be real...

it is all so sweet... so sweet

Saturday, September 06, 2008

Still learning to be a good peer helper - 06/08/08

Today i had to type out my reflection for counselling. Through my thinking process, as i recalled what i learn in class and how i apply and failed to apply some concepts... it really hits me, reminding myself there's still lots to learn in this aspect...

as more and more new things i uncover along the way through 3 of my modules, im sure this term would be a fruitful one in terms of new knowledge and application.

like they say, learning is a never ending process... what's more what im seeking to learn is about humans...

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Am i - 30/08/08

Am i overly too independent? Too much that i try to do, handle, solve everything on my own and on top of that... trying too much to help/listen to others that it might one day just be too much for me to tahan?

something to im pondering about..
The modules i have taken... have made me think a bit different in some ways... and think how/what/why should i improve on...

Monday, August 25, 2008

3rd Working experience with students - 25//08/08

Today was my 3rd time working for AHA in the outdoor camp work.
Well, today wasn't an overnight camp. Rather, it was more of a half day "Amazing Race" for students. This amazing race touches on historical locations, which forms the main objective of the whole tour.

I was a bit lucky to have gotten a group of just 12 students unlike most others who have about 21-23 students. Thus, i was able to handle my group easier. Surprisingly, this group is very enthusiastic. Almost from the first min, they were running around here and there... It was good that they are so "on", but it kinda give me a few scares, afraid that any falls might occur during the race.

Anyway, good experience again overall. For this job, everytime i have initial fears before the work... worry how will the students be, worry how will it turn out, worry bit of this and that... But everytime, it turned out good...

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Counselling & Intro to Psy - 24/08/08

So far so good... My choice of taking counselling and Intro to Psy to me has been a good one.

The first class for each module was good... I dont really know how to explain it, but it certainly beats the feeling of going classes like Biz Law or FA.

Though much reading and thinking process would be needed for this kind of modules, i feel i rather go through this than other kind of modules...

For counselling, one take away from the first class was definitely a strong sentence that Prof Tim spoke.. .that is a good counsellor do not give advice to his client...
the main key phrase is "DO NOT GIVE ADVICE"... this is certainly something i have never heard of... but it really keeps me thinking of a few incidents here and there.. .trying to link his words to my own experience.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Sch Sch Sch!!! - 21/08/08

Sch has started this week. well, so far so good. The feeling of going back to Seminar rooms... of organising my time and apppointments, balancing work, study, and Floorball....

Though its manageable so far, lets hope nothing is being squeezed too much that i would fall sick in the term again. So far, my record is to fall sick once per term. Must try to break this trend.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Cut hair + Colour - 16/08/08



Went to cut my hair today.. and coloured my hair too..
yes, i know... Where's the colour???
Its not obvious, i didn't want it to...
But its dark mahagony...

Thursday, August 07, 2008

Pictures of Bondue Camp - 07/08/08








Bondue Camp - 07/08/08

Straight after my Cambodian trip, it was Bondue Camp straight away. With not much rest, i was heading back to school at night when i just touched down Singapore a few hours ago.

Being a faci this time round, it was a different experience as I and amanda had to initiate and bring the freshies through the camp. First up was the usual ice breaker games... then it was to Lunch at Raffles Place shopping centre. There ,we ate at Thai Express and we had the chance to sit, eat and chat a bit which i think was good for a group as whole to try to get to know each other.

Right after lunch was a series of station games awaiting the freshies. It was gonna be wet and dirty and indeed it didn't disappointed. Though my team wasn't the super on type, i could still see them enjoying the whole process as a whole. For me and Amanda, being faci does not mean we could escape. I was being dunked by peanut butter, ketchup and flour all over my face! So too was Amanda...

At night was Geylang Jalan Jalan, where all gourps had to walk along Geylang to "complete" certain tasks and stations. Our group simply slacked along the way and settled at a tau huay store. There, each of us leaked some secrets of our past and current relationships.... and ahem... as promised, it is kept within us...

Back in SR, we did not went to sleep straight away, as the guys tried to talk some spooky ghost which did not frighten all of us except for Samantha who just can't stand hearing such things. Melvyn had to cut in halfway talking some lame jokes and from horror story telling, to lame questions and answers... haha...

2nd day was a whole day in Sentosa. Our team was already stalled by the waiting time as we had to wait almost 40 mins before we could even start our first station! Our progress wasn't that fast i must say and we are Slackers! However, our performance at the stations itself wasn't too bad. Anyway, we didn't complete the race and they settled by heading to Vivo for ice-cream. Now, up next, is probably one of the highlights of the camp. There at vivo, there is this Dove ShowerOK promotion going on, where the public could sing KTV in a "shower room" and they get a chance to win...

Despite some inital unwillingness to go in, i took the chance to persaude 7 others to go in with me. In the end, we sang "Larger than Life" and create quite a crowd around us. Being the faci of the group, i had to initiate the craziness. I just let hell loose i must say... and first time my freshies seen me gone crazy inside. anyway, if anyone happen to see this... you can vote for me at
http://www.doveshowerok.com/video.php?vid=57

There you could see how crazy my group was... and do some voting for me too ya.. keke

At night was chill out night. Dinner wasn't too bad as we ate buffet style! First time stage games was held at the atrium too. Activities ended around 11pm while each group head back for their own programs for the night. The 2nd night was fun , memorable, yet a bit angry and irritated... I would just say that i had loads of fun playing with my freshies !

we got to sleep only 4 hours with me having to wake up a few times in between to ensure Amanda was sound sleeping. The last day activities was "sports day"

As camp was over by 3plus, most of us still went for a bite after that. We left about 6pm for home as all of us were tired from the 3 day camp.

My feelings overall: Happy to have them as my freshies! Nice bunch of people... Though not as competitive as i would like them to be, but their bonding was excellent and that's more important. If I have made any certain positive impact to anyone of them during this 3 days, then i say my time as a faci for them was worth it.

Pictures of Cambodia - 07/08/08












Cambodia Trip - 07/08/08

I pen down the happenings during my trip to Cambodia. Was away from 29th July to 31 July. Take a look what i did...

29th July
The day started when mum woke me up early. Having steamed a few buns for me, i set off for airport at 555am. Everything went smoothly. Checking in early, we had the time to walk around the transit area, ate some breakfast, played PS3 and Xbox360 and even tried out an OSIM machine before we boarded the plane.

Problem started for me when we were in teh plane. As usual since young, i had motion sickness. I did not eat the "giddy" medicine that my mum gave me. Though the the flight was a mere 2 hours, it was a torrid time for me. Within it, i vommiteed twice!

So the holiday didn't start off that smoothly after all. Luckily, i got better once we touched ground. Heading straight to hotel, we rejected the tour guide's services for the day as we opt to explore the place ourselves. By foot, we set off to our planned route. Along the way, Aaron, being his first time in a third world country, he could feel the bulk difference and lifestlyle there. For me, i noticed a difference in the road conditions. One, there are much more motorists than drivers. A chance upon a Nissan Camry was a quite a rare sight. Motorists could agred as young as 13-15 years old and they ride without helmets. Traffic lights were present but it served little purpose. If there are no predestrians walking across the road, vehicles would still moved ahead. One example, we were at a T-junction with no traffic light then, thus we had to look all 360 direction for cars/motorists in order to cross "safely" One good thing is the speed limit is 30km/h. Or else i do not know how many accidents would have occured per day. Drivers also do give in to each other as neccessary... More better road courtesy as some of those in Singapore.

Lunch was good as we settled at a restaurant allocated beside a hotel. We ordered catfish with sliced green mango, Amok chicken and pork soup with seaweed. Along with a huge serving of rice, I must say our first meal in Cambodia ain't too bad at all.

The next thing we felt was the dusty and sandy road. Thoughout the day, we bought probably more than 5 bottles of water to quench our thirst and clear our throat. Aaron kept complaining sand particles entering his eyes, while my throat began to sore.

Taking tuk tuk for the 1st time, we reached to Angkor Museum. The price for foreigners to enter inside was US12. We didn't want to spend money on it thus we didnt go in. Next, was Central Market. Along the way, we asked quite a few massage stores for price quotes. We had planned all along to go for at least one session for this trip.

One massage store name caught our attention. It was named "7 girls massage"
Nothing sleezy or dirty, when we reached there, at the price of $6, we carried out our full body massage! For that hour, it was damn good. The girls was professional as each stoke was with strength and precision. Being my first time, i was kinda awkward initially, but overall, the session was good. In fact, i was quite disappointed when after the session, we had to get up and go. How i wished i was given 1/2 hour or an hour to lie down and sleep.

We did most shopping at Central and Old Market, buying some tee and souveniors. For dinner, we ate at a Mexican restaurant and desert at a cafe called Blue Pumpkin. Another observation i made, in general, Chicken is nice to eat. other than that, try not to eat beef/pork... it is usually quite hard to chew.

Shopping experience wasn't that fantastic. Most or in fact ALL shops sell the same stuff. Exactly the same bags, same tee, same scarfs... However, one incident was interesting at a store. We were looking at some tee when we were served by this 12 year old girl. She was very enthusiatic, had a nice smile. When we said we may want to buy a tee, she practically took all the tees in front of us, and start taking out each shirt for us to see and try. Usually when we were served in Singapore, the sales girl/boy would open up reluctantly, knowing they have to put it back afterwards, but the cambodian girls showed me a different perspective and attitude towards customers. In the end, we got 2 tees and a coin pouch from her. After we left, i kinda regretted not having to take a picture with her as a momentum.


30th July
We woke up 1 hour earlier in the morning cos of the time difference. I used my handphone to set the alarm, forgetting that Cambodia was 1 hour earlier than Singapore... haha... Later when we finally woke up at the right time, breakfast at the hotel was good. I had my favourite bacon, along with sausages and bread.

the itenary for the day was to visit Angkor Wat. It is one of the 7 wonders of the world. Almost all tourists came here for this. The tour guide describes that it is 12km in diameter all round the area, which is almost about half of Singapore size. That's explains why there are 1-day pass, 3-day pass and 7-day pass to be purchased.

At there, minus the renovation, stolen artifact pieces, the trip to the temples presented me with a different view, a view i will not see in Singapore. What was exciting was that we had to climb at some temples. Being vertically narrow, there is always the risks of falling off. Thank god nothing happened.

It rained in the afternoon, and it kinda spoilt the mood a bit. We could not see the sunset as planned, thus for the last part of the day, we climbed up a hill to another temple. This was where we climbed the highest. at the top, we could see the whole stretch of greens. That reminded me of Brunei, where the mist covered across the area. Aaron thought of the SMU jump and we did it twice. Some other tourist even copied us... hahah...

Lunch and dinner were planned by the agency. It was good for both meals. for both, we ate a lot and had our fill. From Cambodian dishes like curry, Amok fish, there was also some thai, vietnamese, chinese food too. I even got to eat coconut ice-cream, and i ate 3 sticks!

Before the night ended, we went for another round of massage. Twice the price though, it wasn't as shiok as the previous day. Probably because we ain't as tired, probably the massage girls wasn't as good.


31 July
We headed straight to airport right after breakfast. The driver who drove us around for our stay was probably ard 17-18 years old. Always carrying a nice, smiling face with him, Aaron and I couldn't help but to tip him once more before we left. We finally reached Singapore at 330pm.

Looking back, the trip was worth it despite my flight unhappiness. This trip helped me to "escape" Singapore for the time being, allowing me to experience a new culture and environment.

It is quite sad to see those young kids selling hard to earn a living. On the other hand, we could do envy them, being that they could live simple, happily without facing the stress we have in Singapore. Given a choice, I would not exchange my life here in Singapore for a Cambodian life, but given the chance or ability, I do want to possibly help in a way or another.

Overall,
Great Experience, Great time!
But now, its back to reality...

Monday, August 04, 2008

Back to Floorball - 04/08/08

Its good to be back to Floorball after a week disappearing to Cambodia and Bondue Camp. In the evening, went for a run with a few of us. After out for so long, running for 1 hour is supposed to be damn shack. But surprisingly, it turned out to be ok for me.

Running to Esplanade, then towards concourse, to Arab street then to Bugis and back to school.

Oh well, this week is quite busy too. With tml having gym work, and helping out at Bondue Camp, and match over the weekend....

School's Starting!!!!

Sunday, July 27, 2008

2 days time ! - 27/07/08

Im heading for Cambodia in 2 days time!

Excited, well, not really... for now...
What awaits me ahead is 3 days 2 night of travelling.. after almost immediately... 3 days 2 nights of School camp for the freshmen.

Definitely one week to remember....

Of cos... must maintain my health... falling sick at this time would be disasterous!
Not to mentioned, i still another problem to settle before i head to Cambodia. That's floorball meeting with the other clubs to settle out bidding slots for Sports Hall for this coming term...

Good guy, Bad guy... Within one - 27/07/08

Seen the Dark Knight on friday. seriously, i didnt even bothered to think about watching it at first. To me, Its just another Batman movie.

It was until Farhan spoke highly of the movie that got me enticed. Super high ratings! and some even said the best movie EVER! But basically, equal praise from Roger, Jasper, Aaron and co made me called JJ and TF out to see.

Anyway, what's with the good guy and bad guy thingy then?
The movie, to me emphasize a lot of human angelic and evil side within them.
Joker (the bad guy) created mayham over the city, not for money but for the "fun" where he just wanted to create chaos through the several tests of the human mind/dignity/ethics...

To put it short, what i get from this movie is... To be the good guy is tough. You must uphold your principles, behave the right way, do the right things. However, a true good, upright guy is one who can maintain and withhold his actions/thoughts even through extreme adversity.

Now, this... if relate back to life/reality... how often do we hear/see or even talk about the problems we have and face everyday. To be a little extreme, compared to what happen in the movie to what we all faces daily... it is nothing exactly... at least this is what i would try to think. And how often do we see ppl or even ourselves give in the problems and simply give up... giving up on the situation, giving up on ourselves or people ard us. Are we then the good guy or the bad?

This is prob one strange review on a movie i just did... haha...

Saturday, July 26, 2008

My First official Blogshop

After quite a bit of planning, and help from my bro, my long awaited customisation blog was completed. It cannot go without some hiccups on the way. Though it is completed a month late as planned, i am pleased to say that I liked the result of the blog.

I decided finally to create a more decent blog in order to do my DIY business more effectively and better. I had to plan the outlook, the information, and more importantly how do i go about doing it.

I had problems with the coding, html... simply said, i suck at IT and could not created an ideal blog that i imagine of. After much sourcing and testing myself, i know i was not meant for such task. Then i asked my bro to help me out. Indeed, things got better since. I was able to get my ideal layout in no time, and problems that i could not solve myself was easily solved by my bro.

Though he isn't super zhai at it, at least he knows much more. Basically without his assist, i probably would still be stuck at nowhere lands...

now that its up, i have to think of how to market my blog out....
Now, that is what i call MINDING MY OWN BUSINESS!

Its a whole new look, clean , clear and hopefully concise and enticing enough to attact new customers and orders...

Sunday, July 20, 2008

A Win - 20/07/08

SMU Hunters finally got their first league win today.

Leading 2-0 at the 1st period, it was a good change of events as compared to the previous 2 games. However, at the 2nd period, we turn off a bit and allowed them to pull it back to 3-3.

With Jamie back in charge, there was more stability and guidance. We distanced the score during the last period where i managed to provide a nice assist too!

Well, back to training tomorrow, as there are still many things for us to improve.
Defensively, we were poor today during their free hits.

Personally, other than keeping up the fitness, it's still back to the basic control of ball, running with the ball and first time shot that i got to master.

JIA YOU JIA YOU!!! I hope to continue this winning momentum...

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Random pictures - 16/07/08

Some random pictures i took days before i cut it for my ICT...



Bad feeling - 16/07/08

I have this bad feeling again...

that my customer is going to go missing again...
have completed the design for her already, email the pictures and informed her.
But no reply for about 2 days already.

Damn, though i have collected half the price as deposit.
If this is true, that she is going to MIA cos my "poor" design, its gonna affect my confidence nia... that my design really suck meh???? :(

I guess again part and parcel of business eh...

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Floorball league matches 13/07/08

Didnt get the best possible start from my first 2 floorball league games... played 2, lost 2.

Even so, it is definitely a good experience for me and some of the new guys. Personally, i have been training pretty hard to improve and learn the game. Going through the 2 matches, it kinda hits on me that i still have loads to learn and practice on.

In terms of fitness, speed, physciality, i am still below par.
Oh well, i'm taking all the good, and absorbing the bad to improve.
With our coach coming back this week, let's hope there would be better stability and guidance.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Bidding of Modules - 10/07/08

I hate to be saying this... But bidding of modules in SMU isn't fun at all.

One have to consider so many details before a successful bid goes in.
From the modules to bid for, the profs, the day and timing, the people to bid together and whether any exams clashes with each other...

What the hell... i bidded for 3.5 modules and i only get 1 module from the first round...

and rearrangement have to be done... AH !!!! frustrating shit...

Army ICT - 10/07/08

Came back from ICT for a few days already....

This time ICT is suppose to be my High Key period.
lucky, this high key was not too tough...

All we did was to do shooting range... For SAR 21 and metadore...
Other than that, it was the usual IPPT.

I managed to get a silver for it, and am looking forward to my extra $100 incentive... thinking of which, i tot SAF paying system is more effective these days... Why havent i received my $100 man... hmmm...?

Friday, June 20, 2008

Interesting Quotes - 20/06/08

Unless you do what you love to do, you will never become rich. -Adam khoo

It takes twenty years to build a reputation and five minutes to ruin it. If you think about it, you'll do things differently. - Warren Buffett

Success is the result of good judgment. Good judgment is the result of experience. Experience is the result of bad judgment. -Anthony Robbins

My policy is to learn from the past, focus on the present and dream about the future. Im a firm believer in learning from adversity. Often the worst of times can turn to your advantage, my life is a study of that. - Donald Trump

Risk comes from not knowing what you are doing - Warren Buffett

It is not risky to buy securities at a fraction of what they are worth - Warren Buffett

If you don't understand it, don't do it - Warren Buffett

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Time Waits for No One - 19/06/08

Interesting and Meaningful story...

Many years ago, i bought a house on the resale market. The previous owners had lived there for the past twenty years. They moved in when they got married. For us, it was the time when my younger son had just been born, and we bought it because we wanted to provide two lively boys with a lawn to run around. When i was cleaning out of the rooms, I found a wedding photograph of the Tsai couple, the previous owners, stacked in a corner of the master bedroom. I contacted them to come and retrieve their photograph.

When we met, i teased them for leaving their precious photograph behind. Mrs tsai smiled back and said:" Its funny, ever since we got it back from the photo studio, it had been placed in that corner. We wanted to put it up over the bed when we have the time, never did we think twenty years would pass by and it would still be there in the corner" At this, we all laughed out loud together. As they left, i still called after them:" this time, remember to hang that on the wall in your new house."

My mother often said to me, " Time waits for no one!" She would tell me:" three years can go by in the blink of an eye. A lifetime could be like three blinks; your life could all be spent with nothing at all save the white hairs to show for it." So i constantly remind myself to cherish the present. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is undecided. Only today is what we have in hand. Tomorrow will have its beginning in today. How we fare tomorrow is bring determined from today. So ask yourself what sort of future you really want.

My eldest brother was an artist. All his peers held their art exhibitions. They also urged him to hold one. Each time he would decline, saying " My paintings are just not good enough! Wait till I can do them better," Once, while i was back Taiwan and his classmates had just held their exhibitions, I urged him:" Big brother, you are their equal. What are you waiting for? Until your are too old?" He said:" relax, I will hold a really great one man show when i reach 70." Alas, my eldest brother died at the age of 66 years. Last november when it would have been his 70th birthday, his old classmates came together and held for him the "Mr Lee Wen Ya Memorial Art Exhibition" It was a great show. But he was no longer around to see it.

The 3 golden rules of "DON'T WAIT"
When u have the need, DON'T WAIT
When u have the vision, DON'T WAIT
When u have the passion, DON'T WAIT

For this simple reason-" Time waits for no one"

Sunday, June 15, 2008

A day out with Dada










Yesterday had a rare outing with my nephew along with mum and bro.... and those were some of the pictures taken...

Went to vivo and brought him around. Wanted to bring him go see movie, Kungfu Panda, but that boy scared of dark... dare not see...

Friday, June 13, 2008

A new lesson learnt, but same all together - 13/06/08

Recently, i managed to come to know of a guy who have since taught me, or rather refresh my memory towards thinking hard on my life direction.

Met up a few times for a good talk and chat. Personally, i find him a nice guy, a person who is sincere. However, as my feelings and suspicions grew along with my former exposure, it was still back to the same old thing again. All about MLM/Network Marketing and etc... His "office" let the cat out of the bag. Through searching in internet, i found my answer!

I did told him that i don't think that MLM do not work, but rather it is the people in it that makes it bad. MLM needs people to work, but it is the same people that makes it fall.

I still have his books with me that i have not read it yet. I believe they are helpful to me, i would find time to read it soon. and prob meet him up to pass him back.

Then... Back to my life direction, i have to really rethink/refocus or rather i have not found the answer after this few years of asking and trying and answering myself. Slowly but surely.. hopefully in the near future so that i can really focus and work towards it.

Friday, June 06, 2008

New DIY blog - 06/06/08

Recreated a new DIY blog. This time i listed out all items that i have done since the start. So its more of a gallery for ppl to view it all.

Located at the side, do feel free to click it in for you viewing pleasure. Also, any comments on my designs are most welcomed.

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Definition of Happiness - 03/06/08

Had a chance to know this guy recently. He is actually a NUS alumini from the entrepuenuership Club and he was trying to ask people to sign up for the workshop.

Managed to arrange time to meet him for a chat. We were talking when this issue of happiness came about. I remembered he said that he heard a famous writer saying that happiness is obtained once every small little goals are achieved along the way towards a bigger goal.

Thought of it afterwards about it.
Does Happiness come from these small little goals? does it count for external sources?
I was thinking doesnt happiness come from within instead? Meaning u start to be happy by being happy... and not happy only when ppl or circumstances made u happy.

Whatever it is... Happiness can be vague too. People may think that they are happy with a lot of money... they may think they are happy with many friends... or simply happy by seeing the people around them happy. So question we must ask today may be are we happy today? Are we doing the right things... thinking the right way to be happy....

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Busy Busy Busy - 01/06/08

Still have been busy since my last blog post.

Had another 1 day outdoor camp, back to army camp for my medical refresher training, my continuous floorball training and headache settling many logistics stuff for my floorball.

tonight for the first time had the rare chance to see a concert! wow!
My bro was lucky to win a pair of tickets to Zhang Dong Liang 's concert, so together went to see it.

His singing was fantastic i must say. for the good of 2 plus hours heard some of his main songs from his past albums.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Working at 1st Outdoor Camp - 24/05/08

Just got back from my outdoor camp on friday evening. Was quite an experience in the sense that i got to self-realise a few things.

First, i still have a lot to learn to be a good facilitator. I handled Pri 5 school kids in this camp and they are quite a handful together. Being my first time, i have not been able to keep their spirits up all the time. Using my own method, it seems not useful or rather no effects on them at all. For that, in this camp, i did quite a bit of observations to other experienced facilitators on how what they did to control the kids.

Having said that, personally, i have tried my best in this camp to keep them safe, have fun and teach them some learning points that they should note of. I believe, with continual experience, i would do it better in terms of guiding, advising and facilitating.

The camp was at Bottle Tree Park at Yishun area. if i remembered correctly, one friend of mine told me to go there some time to check it out, saying that it was a nice place to go to fish. Well, just nice, this camp brought me there. The camp took me a lot of my time there, so i did not really get to see and enjoy the environment proper. However, the place leave a good impression on me. Looks quite a nice place to just hang out and relax.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

First Camp Assignment - 18/05/08

Got my first confirmed camp assignment yesterday.
It will be next thurs to fri, a 2D 1N camp.
Now thinking of it, i have to get a backpack, maybe a pouch, torchlight, whistle

Besides equipments, i still need to prepare other stuff like cheers, ice breaker games and read through the briefing booklet about the camp know-hows.

hmm... not so sure if im taking primary or secondary school students, will need to go for a pre-camp briefing to know more.

Anyway, so nice.. a friend design something for me out of my name. Pretty cool given that its the first time she's doing it. And i even told her i may used the design to draw onto my faci tshirt... kinda can differentiate myself from others ya...
need to get a bit of permmission before i do that. keke :)

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Too many to handle? - 14/05/08

Today realise that i am trying to juggle to many things at the same time. though its holidays, i havent feel that im undergoing holidays now. Just that i dont have to study, no proj datelines.

But what hits me is my Sch CCA commitments, work, family problems, personal problems, etc... but im still surviving still..

Floorball logistics is giving me a lot of work for now. Because im taking over, and earier than expected. I have loads of things to clear and sort out.

Family and personal prob is slowing me down at times, as the issues will just roll and roll inside my mind most of the time and delay me from other matters.

Upcoming commitments are my work. Taking adhoc/project jobs, this really tests my time management. Soon i will start on my outdoor camp facilitator for sec/pri school, school gym staff, and my usual kumon tuition centre work.

AH!!!!!!!!! No rest no rest... but that's typically me...
hopefully i can really enjoy and rest well when i go for Cambodia...

Monday, May 12, 2008

Hate the feeling of sick - 12/05/08

Had this odd feeling in me last night that im falling sick. Feeling heaty and fatigue... bones aching like an old man... GOsh..

Anyway, before that i did something new. That is to went filming. Yes... filming as an extra. I did once before but it was just as part of a crowd.. clapping when told or not... sitting there do nothing...

This time, i managed to "register" myself through an agent, introduced by my aunt. Surprisely, the job came fast. Yesterday, i was to act as a boyfriend of a blind girl. THe whole story is based on a true life story of this couple. I and the fake blind girl was the younger version of the couple.

All in all, did about 5 to 6 scenes, about how the bf met her, what the bf did to help her in her school work and etc...

Quite an experience i must say... but it can be help if the director could just shout "cut" in her directing. Often, a few scenes, we are still acting when they have already stopped rolling the camera. Make me like an idiot like that. :)-

Anyway, coming back home, totally shack and this ill feeling in me developed. SUCK... hope to get better... Tml still have OJT to go to in the morning.

Monday, May 05, 2008

Life 05/05/08

Sometimes life just seems unfair eh....
But we all must stand tough and faced it bravely...

Friday, April 25, 2008

Simple / Complicated - 25/04/08

This thought just came to mind. Its between this two word, "Simple" and "Complicated"

Life suppose to be simple, but yet, people would always do something or think something that makes simple ... complicated.

Yesterday went to join Sports leaders camp. wasnt supposed to be there as an official participants, but was encouraged by Hussein to go. Since i could afford the time, i felt it was no harm going to learn and know more about the way things work and the people. I must say the end result personally was not too bad.

Discussion wise, i could observe a bit on how several individuals think through the discussion and chats. Some are just there because they were made to. other like me and Hussein still joined when they are not suppose to, because we want to. Comments/suggestions made during discussions, often than not, it is to address their individual problems specifically. simple procedures are made complicated all because of the complexicity of humans.

Claims of expenses have to go through at least a few steps... much time consumed by the parties involved.Events proposal have to be done.. Red Tape... Hierachy of events and chains to go through... All this made by humans, caused by humans... because of humans making things complicated when it ought to be easy.

even i myself are still going this period from time to time, be it relationship or work. May god bless and lead me the right path...!

Made quite a mess - 25/04/08

oh well, today started to work on the caps for the girl who requested her 2 caps. Really had to take time to buy the caps, buy the paints, and the thinking process is long and hard. In the end, when i got home at night, after talking to my bro and mum about my initial design, i decided to change in the end.

What ironic is, my initial design took me about 1 hour, while after suggestions and viewpoints from my bro, i took about 3 mins to draw a new one. Though it was much simple, it fulfilled more to the requirement that the girl wanted.

Anyway, started to colour and made quite a mess in the end, oh well.. that part and parcel of doing it yourself. I'm like 85% done for the first cap. Hope to get both done by saturday so that i can proceed to "hers" next.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Project Cap - 22/04/08

Project Cap coming up... now what's that... its another DIY thingy that i am going to do. Apparently, a girl contacted me through Wholivesnearyou that she likes my DIY caps that i posted in my blog that she would like me to do 2 caps for her.

Interesting, she is giving me the freedom to do the designs for her. However, i have to source the cap and think of the design though. Cant be profitable now but who knows right in the future... haha... I am just glad that she likes my designs so far. Hope to do a good job for her.

In addition, planning to do one for "her" too. Thinking she might need it ... I hope that she would like it or even use it too... Time will tell...

Friday, April 18, 2008

Though its over... 18/04/08

Exams over... yes its over... Year 1 down... 3 more years to go...

This week had Financial Accounting, Management Science and Technology and World Change.

FA, though it was cup of tea, in the sense that i did accounting before, it was supposed to be a breeze for me. Well, during studying, it did, cos i did not need to spend a lot of time to study this subject. On test date, it turn out to be quite tough i must say... Though manageable, there's still a thought hanging whether did i do well? Did i calculate them properly... cos in the end, i didnt had time to check at all, and with that uncertainty, it will always give me a uncomfortable feeling...

MS, i expected it to be tough, well... my prof doesn't give easy, straight forward question. True, from the start to the end, everyone was on their toes all the way... haha...I had to rush answering the questions and again, No time to check... i even had to skip a part question.. Now come to good part, I remembered at the start of the term, the first lesson, i would notice prof givving us a cheeky look at us when we were all so blur at the concepts he was teaching. Now at the end, when exam has finished, that same look has appeared. He was talking to 2 other students about the qns that he set. Apparently, two of the qns, the later part of the questions were exactly the same answers as the earlier part of the qns. He said it while explaining and that expression of his appeared again... oh my... it is as if he is "laughing" inside of him that we silly students were tricked by him yet again.

Oh well, today's TWC was no better. We had a set of articles, links, information to read up first before the paper. Though the questions given were a bit expected in a way or another, the time given was just 2 hours. BAsed on the things we need to absorb and write, i had to rush through the 2 hours yet again... and again... No time to check... in fact, i wouldnt know what to check...

Anyway, now that's over, what's next... Yes.. there is a 4 month holiday ahead of me before year 2. But... there's lots of things to settle, to ponder, to do... and to think about... Hai...

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

Spirit of Enterprise - 09/04/08

Today i struggled with so insufficient sleep the night before. Think i slept less than 4 hours and had to attend a morning class for MS.

All points to me wanting to wake up in the early morning to watch the liverpool match... oh well... at least LIVERPOOL IS IN THE SEMIS!

anyway, after class, i had to head to SIM Management House for a briefing. It was job scope where i and others were to be interviewers for Spirit of Enterprise. Its a yearly event where entrepeunuers are awarded for their work they did in their respective fields.

And i... my work is to search for these kind of entrepeuneurs... interview them... and nominate them for the award... Interesting job indeed. Though its a adhoc assignment basis, it is one interesting job.

Anyone have someone in mind whom i can nominate for the award???

Saturday, April 05, 2008

Never let you go - 05/04/08

JANICE WEI LAN NEVER LET YOU GO (ENGLISH) LYRICS

The rain just never seems to bring the joy, I feel the same,
Everlasting pain of my loss remains,
My heart can't seem to learn to part,
The hold you left your mark,
All that I dreamed of now it seem so stark,

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now, but give in,

*Chorus
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.

The way you left me on the train,
I don't know what to say,
I remember everything of that day,
I can't believe we'd never dance,
I just need one more chance,
To share the sunset,
Our one last romance,

Though I told myself, won't hold my breath,
A part of me was dying,
There is nothing left for me to do now but give in,

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Can't Decide - 02/04/08

One of my few indecisive periods...
Holiday is coming soon.. right after exams...

hmm... what should i do? got plenty of options, but can't decide...
im sure that i would be working... only a matter of what will i be working...

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Mess Mess 29/03/08

Home is indeed in a mess...
Family have moved in here...
Cartons all over the places... resuffling needed. And its a total shift!

Not quite a good timing given that exams is coming soon...
Anyway, its all about time management... !

The army mobilisation this week better not be activated... 4 days to go...
or not, it will ruined my mood even more...

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Lower Concentration level - 27/03/08

Felt that this few days, my concentration level has been lower than usual.

Usually, even how busy i am, i could sort out my task and time manage quite well. But this few days, minds been out of sorts. What more work load should have been lessen as i have clear some assignements and presentations.

oh well, maybe the uncertainty of the upcoming holidays made me like this?
Or what? gosh... talking nonsense again...

anyway, what shall i do for holidays?
1) go back Mount E hospital ( provided they accept me back as part time staff of course)
2) Seek new part time jobs ( can rest a bit first b4 searching)
3) Apply internship (considering this... still have a few more days before dateline application)
4) Work for sch (but is successful, i would only have 3 days of rest and its work again)

Hai.. in the mist of this, also there's another flexible job that i havent gone for briefing yet. Dont know how much commitment that takes too... hmmm....

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Headache / Medical Pill - 23/03/08

:(
this few days been having headache and feeling heaty.
Just yesterday, mum gave me some pill that she initially prepare for dad.
She initially got it for dad, but he stopped eating. so we went to the medical hall to ask the shop auntie abt the pills.


anyway, the freaking pills is damn expensive... i was shocked when she tried to get my mum to buy more. she was saying currently is $40 per pill !!!

Freak... in the end i found out it is a kind of pill where the medical hall would crush that particular pill and put it into 8 capsule... so it means $5 per capsule.. .

Omg!!! anyway, i took one already to see its effect... supposedly to help me "drain" out my toxic in my body... we'll see if i will be more "healthier" ... keke..

Friday, March 21, 2008

By the Power of Your Love

Lord I come to You Let my heart be changed renewed
Flowing from the grace that I found In You

Lord I've come to know The weakness I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love

Hold me close Let Your love surround me
Bring me near Draw me to Your side

And as I wait I'll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You Your Spirit leads me on
By the power of Your love

Lord unveil my eyes Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love as You live In me

Lord renew my mind As Your will unfolds my life
In living every day By the power of Your love

Hold me close Let Your love surround me
Bring me near Draw me to Your side

And as I wait I'll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You Your Spirit leads me on
By the power of Your love

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Listening Ear 18/03/08

Isn't it nice to have someone to listen to your problems and you able to do vice versa?

"It is only after many people not worth knowing that you find a few who worth much more
It is only after many failures that you find success. "

True? Well... I think it is... Despite many failures, it doesnt mean one should stop searching his own success.

Despite the many jerks or uncertainty in your relationship, it doesnt mean that you should stop from searching the right one or fight in maintaining your happiness.
(this msg is for u 2.. Lileen and Aaron) :)

Monday, March 17, 2008

201 POSTS! - 10/03/08

just realised that i have already hit 200 posts. This is my 201th post!

Ok... for the past few posting, it has been shit... nothing but shit about me.
I have decided.... HEY! this blog is simpleme-des.blogspot.com.
Its supposed to be simple, and everything about me Desmond. The simple, positive, ever cheerful, brave, never give up Desmond must persist here... Well.. at least here...

So i have decided, here... there will be only good positive posts... No more emo me... No more sadness about me....

Thanks to BoBo, Casey, Aaron and those who happen to take notice of my change or showed concern to me. Thanks, really thanks....
But its still in me that i tend to keep problems on my own. So i will bring all the bad things to another blog. Link? well... of course i will keep it a secret.
Who will get to know it? well... highly unlikely anyone will get it.
I hope no one would somehow be able to search it and spread it around though... keke...

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Rashness and Hot Temper 16/03/08

This is my weakest link. I have always been hot-tempered and rash. Often than not, i just acted on it, or simply just flare up.

My mum and grandma experienced it first hand many times... a hell lot of times...
Not forgetting my poor brother and close friends... of course, at times i flare up is because of them being bullied by outside parties.

Take my bro example when i was still in Pri 6 and he was pri 4, he had a quarrel with a friend and her mum confronted us. I got really angry and defended my bro like hell. I did not give face to the auntie and argued back for my brother. I am damn protective to those close to me.

But often than not, i flare for the wrong reasons. Shouting and scolding was common thing that my family faced. My mum had to cool me down many times, reminding me the right from the wrong. How i appreciate that... after time since then, i have managed to control my temper better. Also given the change in circumstances around me, i could not longer bear to quarrel with my grandma. With her condition getting bad to worse, this is just something i should do (or rather not do - flare up again).

Overtime, i have grown to be more careful of other's thinking and feelings. I tried as much to be as positive as possible despite whatever problems i faced. Nothing fazed me, i take it by my stride, i faced it bravely. But because of that, i tend to take it all on my own, trying to handle and solve on myself. I knew that's not right. But im not one who will openly discussed my problems easily.

Then come this stupid mistake again. Something i did in the moment of rashness, yet again. Now, what will happen next? Is it lost forever, I hope not... i really Hope not...or else, it will be another regret that i have bear again. I know time is needed now and i shouldnt rush things yet again.

No title this time 16/03/08

Every lesson, experience or mistake is valuable.

I may have made a silly one this time... a really silly one this time... but
i take it as something i have to go through, some thing to learn.

Only time will tell... only time will tell..
I mean i rather i suffer than the other party. I rather take it all on my own.

at least i had Steven Gerrard to talk to... that's not too bad... haha...
Thanks bro...

Saturday, March 15, 2008

I feel like a fool 14/03/08

If really sixth sense works, i must say it really works...

I feel like a fool, not knowing now what to do next...
now i gotto let it go...
i gotto hope everything will turn out fine...
i gotto hope that it does not affect project...
i gotto hope that things would still be as before...

well at least i know the answer...
and from there, all the more i know why they say
"men from mars, women from venus"

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Shitty Feeling - 13/03/08

Damn shitty feeling... Feeling angry yet worried at the same time...
and worse, do i have the right to feel like that in the first place?

I am so freaking LOST!

i cannot find a good timing, I know everything else is managable but this is really killing me...
I need an answer... But there's only one way...
COME ON DESMOND... Just do it !
):

Friday, March 07, 2008

Uncertainty - 07/03/08

Uncertainty is one that i dont like.... Extremely hate it. Because it is so uncertain.

I hate this feeling!
Not knowing what will happen.
Not knowing the other party's thoughts
Not knowing of its consequences
Not knowing what to do
Not knowing whether what I am doing is right
SUCK!!!!

So is it just me or everyone else?

Thursday, March 06, 2008

Nice Prof - 06/03/08

Today i was glad to know of a Prof who is so helpful.

Though i have yet to meet her personally, her mail replies says it all.
I am still in the mist of deciding my major. and OBHR is now under my consideration list.
Through some findings, I contacted this Prof through mail and i sent a hopeful mail to her hoping for a reply.

To my surprise, her reply was fast and good. She was more than willing to give me some advice on my problem and even offered to meet up to discuss with it.

As such, im meeting her next week for it. Nice right...

To know or not to know - 06/03/08

Isnt there at times there is some questions where you hope for answer but yet at the same time you fear knowing it and the consequences it will follow along with it?

Saturday, March 01, 2008

Wakiki 01/03/08

Today was a SMU event at Sentosa, Wakiki.

i joined with my floorball mates for this event. Its a event where we get to play many different games. They had beach soccer, handball, frisbee, volleyballl etc etc....

We got ourselves into different groups and today we had to reach early. We got a early scare when it was raining when we got the place. Luckily, it soon began to stop. Though later there was still some drizzling, it didnt disrupt the games that much.

In total, i played about 10 games.... 6 at beach soccer, 4 at handball.... Total Shack.
But we had fun... Just simply spend one day out of school work is just great!

of course, i still hope that she gets well soon too...

Friday, February 29, 2008

Had fun in the primary school 29/02/08

I took the opportunity in a part time job to teach primary school kids a software program created this company, Person e-motion Pte Ltd.

I had to travel all the way to NUS for briefing and training first before i was selected to be a lead trainer for classes.

I must say that i was intially quite nervous about the scenario of handling so many kids at one time. But it was a challenge i wanted to take up.

Hiccups along the way as the software keeps giving me unwanted problems.
Despite many email communication with the PEM personnel, i could not settle it at all.
So what was taught to me by my trainer, I had to readjust, change and add necessary changes.

My first school was to be at Pasir Ris Primary. Never did i know that, the school itself had the same problems in the software. I and my asst trainer had to come out ways to change the training program so that the kids could try to take in as much as possible.

Today, i went to Poi Ching School where i handled primary 6 students. Compared to Pasir Ris, where i handled Pri 3 & 4, this school gave me lesser problems in the software too.
Being the 2nd class, I got the hang of it and could control the class better too.

Anyway, a cute thing happen is that a prefect wanted my email contact saying that to him, it is normal to get trainer contact. ... haha.. i was thinking such a young kid and he know how to network already...

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Always to nice to know 28/02/08

Don't you think that its always nice to know people ard you who are willing to help you even though they are not obliged to do so...

It just makes you feel that you are one worth to be cared for...

Friday, February 22, 2008

LTB HELP!!!

If any of you is reading this!!!

Check out the link on the left hand side.
--> MY LTB LINK

I need a favour from YOU ... YES, U !!!

Sunday, February 17, 2008

No mood 17/02/08

Supposed to complete some of the to do list this weekend.
But somehow... I just dont have the mood. Been thinking about some stuff... and pondering about Life again... Yes.. time from time, i would just think on just the topic about life itself...

What's there to think... well...
can be about friendship, relationship, work, family,
on reasons, results, purposes... on why must one do this...why must one react like that...
about how irony life is... about what should i do regarding certain aspects of life...
should i just go for it? Am i picky? Am i thinking too much? or might as well dont think at all?
Is there enought time? or simply too much time i have wasted already....

What if this.. What if that...
Why cant this... why cant that...
so many things... factors that link together... linking people's thoughts, actions and future consequences.... All are so interlinked... It ought to be simple.. But... it never was... and i guess it never will be...

Now.. who is reading this... bear with me...
It may be crap to you... but its what keeps me thinking a lot...
crazy as it is... it is just ME...

Mention to some before that i like to listen to people...
listen to their troubles, queries, questions...
like to help solve or simply just share by listening...
Today, another friend mention that im a positive looking person...
well... it is what keeps me going...
but often or not...i am the same as all others...
i havent been able to find a right person where i can do vice versa... where i can simply voice everything out... without thinking of the latter consequences that may bring...
Is this my weak link?
Who will it be... Will there ever be... I dont know...

Irony... ! - 17/02/08

Life is full of irony..!
Who disagree?

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Not so good CNY 10/02/08

This chinese new year is supposed to my a "good" year for me since its the RAT year... or as what my friend told me it should be...

Today, one even told me that there was a belief that those in the zodiac year should wear red underwear to keep themselves good luck... so funny strange belief...

Anyway, it did not bring me a good start in any sense.
First up, though it is supposed to be holiday, I was still bothered by the many tasks i have still at hand. Even at new year's eve, i was still doing researching, doing up proposal etc...
Things did not improve the next day as i kena sore throat and start to have the NOT FEELING WELL feeling in me. Basically, i struggled a bit the last two days when it was supposed to be REST day for me... not RECOVERY days.

Even today, the 3rd day , i had to be in sch for class and presentation. And i was coughing all the way during class... SUCK...

Though i feel much better now... still it does not feel good to be sick. I must really find a way to stop this from happening. If not, I would have to struggle at least once in each term, and that would sure disrupt my productivity.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Developments in LTB

Yes, im going to talk about LTB again...

Today had our proposal presentation to the whole class. It was generally well accepted except for some of the details that the others were concerned of. If not, it is a good session.

Though freaking tired after sleeping at 3am the night before, I feel that the group as a whole has progressed to another level. I appreciate by the recongition of my efforts towards the project by my fellow groupmates. We had a mini short session of discussing our progress so far and I must say this group is definitely super cool. Accept for some minor flaws, i think that we have addressed it and from there, i could see from the way we work, it became more efficient.

It was obvious to me in class when each of us handled different tasks on hand and distribute it accordingly. Nabil, one of our group member, though a little left out inititally have reassured that he has to commit to the whole group cause. He knows what he is lacking and he has to start to prove us wrong. I can his potential... Hope everything will go on well as times progresses.

I was particularly impressed by Sherlyn by her determination. We were caught on hold regarding one of our proposed idea and she just couldnt take it down. She continued source for ways for a solution and guess what, SHE DID! Though it is not fully solved, but no all hope is lost for it... I know that if it was me, i would have just let it go and progressed to other plans. Something that i ought to learn.