Monday, July 06, 2009

You and Me - 06/07/09

For those i care, U will get it from me...
For those i dont, its never and nothing...

For those i really super care, I do it more through action
Man of less words and talk I am
I yearn for appreciation, encouragement and encouragement
Irony eh... quite the opposite of what i do/give and what i want back in return

Im on own now - 06/07/09

With the cancellation, Im on my own now...
Got to earn and save more now till graduation...

Jia You!

Sunday, July 05, 2009

Good Weekend - 05/07/09

just had a good weekend...
though a bit tired... but it was worth it...

better dont think too much... just take one day at a time...
look into the "right" side... things will be better...

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Heavy - 30/06/09

As one grows older, doesnt his/her weight of responsibility/tiredness/fatigue over life just grow too...

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

will the term ahead be busier? - 24/06/09

Gosh... the start of term seems nearer and nearer...
a sudden thought... i was so busy and tired last term that i nearly completely shack out... now that its coming back... how will it be like?

i will still take 5 modules... also my 2 part time jobs.. plus floorball of course...
shit! holy shit! and i can't let any go... no choice... anyway, as time draws nearer and nearer to graduation, it seems a bit more clearer on my path to go... but still there's still uncertainty... hope everything settles as it comes... like they chuan dao qiao zhi ran zhi...

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Hard to Find - 19/06/09

It is really pretty hard to find isn't it...
You can't just say, "I want, i find, i will get.. "
You can't just randomly pick ... You can't randomly accept...

How is it to be it... ? When at times you think you are finding, but you are really not... or you are not finding, it may be just there for you to take note of it...

*^&#*@@... i thought giving my brain a break was a good thing... Oh well... it was in a way... blehhhhhhhhh

Let's pray then...

Friday, June 19, 2009

Passages for guys and for girls - 19/06/09

2 Passages i got from my gan mei... Very interesting indeed... Again, it highlights the difference in male and female... and we thought life is already complicating enough

1)
男生的心
男生的心很脆弱,
常常因為妳的小動作而心碎,
如果妳一直若即若離, 我怎麼敢喜歡妳.
男生的心思很細密,
喜歡妳的我, 會不計一切的付出,
單純的以為妳會懂得珍惜.
男生的爱情很不容易說出口,
因為一旦說出口, 或許再也沒有或許了,
彼此悲傷見面真的很不好受.
男生的心很懦弱,
總怕傷心而緊閉雙唇,
或許 一打開雙唇盡吐心語後,
就會後悔當初為何不乖乖沉靜在那片刻的幸福中...

2)
女生的心
常常因為你的小體貼而感動,
如果你一直對我好,我可能就會喜歡你.
女生的感情很豐富,
喜歡你的我,會毫不保留的付出,
天真的認為有天你就會懂.
女生的心很容易受傷,
所以我不輕易說出口,假如期望落空了.
傷心難過很不好 受.
女生的心很倔強,
總希望你先說,如果你也猶豫不決,
或許我們就這樣錯過,
再來後悔為何當初不說

The Difference Maker - 19/06/09

Some quotes i gotten out from a book, The Difference Maker.

-“If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it, change your attitude. Don’t complain.”

-The greatest difference my difference maker can make is within me, not others.

-“A great leader doesn’t treat problems as special. He treats them as normal.” If you are working, expect problems. If you are dealing with family, expect problems. If you are minding your own business and trying to relax, expect problems. If everything goes according to plan, then be pleasant surprised. If it doesn’t and you’ve planned accordingly, then you won’t get so frustrated. A problem not anticipated is a problem. A problem anticipated is an opportunity.

-Afraid of poverty? Convert it to a positive work ethic
Afraid of greediness? Convert it to generosity
Afraid of rejection? Convert it to an ability to connect with people
Afraid of insignificance? Convert it to the service of others

-“It may not be your fault for being down, but it is your fault for not getting up” – Steve Davis

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Bored Bored sian sian.. - 17/06/09

Hai... hai ... hai...
ok... for once a long time... i choose to pose something a bit more negative...
human mah...

sometimes wanna just knock my brains out... and throw it away...
Do i need to keep myself more busy and occupied?
or do i need a new life direction?
or what... a new life stage i have to go through?

blehhhhhhhhh...

Sunday, June 07, 2009

4th week of internship - 07/06/09

Wooh... Just like that, this coming week is my 4th week of internship...
and i remembered taking this long for my holiday before that... wow.. time flies man..

This week would be interesting given that the whole place would be left with just 2 interns around! Me and Karen! wow! amazing... i got this info right on the first day of work and was amazed that our boss would let this happen...

This actually shows her flexibility and autonomy she has given us. Honestly, i was not comfortable with this initially. And the more the "gives", the more i hope to return back in terms of work competence and results.

I would have a to do list before she comes back. She has given us the freedom too when she and our full time colleague is away. So let's hope this week is smooth going and i will be able to complete the tasks given or even more...

Sunday, May 24, 2009

1st week of internship & back to training - 24/05/09

1st week of internship ended just like that...
adapting in wasn't hard since i already know my boss and colleagues already..
This work is interesting but yet strange in some ways at the same time. I was able not to feel too much stress (maybe the 1mth rest helped), but yet, i feel what i have been doing isn't enough (i hope to contribute more!).

Indeed, its a different feeling this time. It is probably the first time this is a work that i have aimed for. A series of tasks that is striving towards developing the students... it is the closest to my ideal working environment. Everyday for the 5 days, I always had this feeling of not having done enough for the day. Everyday time passed very fast. From planning & thinking through the training program, to classes at the schools, to meetings and even preparation for the next day's class, time just gone by in a swift moment. I would be complaining "how am i going to survive the rest of the internship?" if i were to work at other places. but this time.. no! even the tau huay auntie finds a "glow" in me.. in the 1st week, i have gone to buy tau huay 3 times already... On thursday, she mentioned ,"can see you are quite happy at your work now hor... smile so happily!" at that moment, it felt strange, but turning back to think it later, it made sense..

It is a different feeling to what i gone through during the 1mth break... where i had plenty of time.. and thoughts may gone a bit wild.

Leaving about 9 weeks to go .. there are more things to learn and do... Planning and developing a program is mind straining at times. I got to think through in detail if a particular activity serves a particular purpose. Does it help the kids to learn something from it? Does it have an impact? I look forward to a meeting on tuesday with a school on how we could come up with a at risk youth program for a group of "almost dropping out" kids..

Training! as i mark the start of internship, it is also me going back to training. Having resting for 3 weeks, i was a bit rusty on monday. during drills, my passing gone off at times. Luckily, my knee was ok.. .no problems... Now on sunday, i had already done 3 training session injury free. Well done!

As training increases to 3 times per week, + my intent for a varied gym session on wednesday, it will almost mean me working out almost 4 times per week. shack shack! hhaa... but its something of a challenge i look forward to...

Fitness is a mini problem for me right now, finding myself cannot last that long as the others. more suicide drills i guess!!! Ah!!!

Friday, May 15, 2009

ktv marathon!! - 15/5/09

ytd i and tengfu went for a ktv marathon...
only both of us, we went to Top one ktv at Bugis and sang from 12 plus to 550pm...
for over 5 hours, we sang out loud and almost had our throats busted!!!

It was the first time we were there, and we were pleasantly surprised by the facilities... Im sure is it because we were lucky to get a bigger room... cos what got me surprised was that there was a "mini" stage in the room where one could actually be up there singing! damn cool...

There were intersting functions like disco lights to add on the atmosphere...
One function that we probably over misuse was the "smoke" We could actually create the smoke out of a outlet as if watching a concert! On occasions, i played with it too much, making the whole room filled with smoke! haha...

anyway.. after that, we met JJ for movie... Angels and Demon...
Read the book quite a long time ago, thus most of the plot have already been forgotten... but its a nice movie... with scenes followed one after another in a good sequence...

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Long long time - 10/05/09

Yes, it has been a long time since i updated anything here.

Its holidays and i must say in a way, i have been resting a lot, in a way, i have not at all!

Resting in a sense that I made myself to have a break for about a couple of weeks before my internship starts. The term that ended was too Shack! Not that it was very tiring in terms the modules i take, but rather i was experiencing a bit of burnout after so long and many commitments i am taking at the same time.

With that, the break through this couple of weeks wasn't really the best one. I got myself injured and had to miss training during this period. Family issues isn't helping either and suddenly i find myself getting bored again, with nothing to do. Getting friends out wasn't all that easy with some still studying, or working already... Of cos not all is bad, where there are good to be recall and experienced.

Anyway, one more week before internship starts, and i have mixed feelings since i am looking forward to the challenge but yet hope i could set myself well to the tasks that's given to me.

I got to really change my sleeping habits proper... It has been something that i find very difficult to overcome... Also working more on my lower body and generally myself... Though age 24-25 is still consider young, at the sports level, it may be not... No more injuries Pls!

1st gym gathering - 10/05/09

For the 1st time since i started working in the gym for about a year, i went for the gym team's gathering. It was a bit "special" in that it was help at a hotel room instead of a person's house.

So Me, Terence and Zhongyi were the first to reach Hotel Re... Soon after Jerry and Rio came too... we practically spent the whole afternoon playing guitar hero... and guess what.. it is my 1st time at it... Cool i must say... but all english.. haha.. would be nice if there's chinese songs? keke...

as dinner time approaches, Yee Ling, one of the graduated stuff made the food reached.. along with the others. Nice Preparation, with sandwich, and spagetti... :)

I didnt stay overnight ... with sunday in mind... so left at 11pm with some others.

Friday, March 06, 2009

oops... time flies again - 06/03/09

Yes.. Time always flies...
From the last blog... what are some of the new happenings around me:
- I injure my knee soon after the 7km run in my last blog.
- I been back to a 2nd round of accupuncture
- Slowly starting to train my lower limbs (i need more strength!)
- I started to eat food at the market in Eunos.. and there are plenty of space to sit
- Been finding a prof of mine very irritating. The worse teacher ever!
- continue to religously heading to Yusof Ishak Sec for my facilitator work. I get to solve "designs" problems on the spot. I get to handle a bunch of difficult but managable of students.
- New type of towels being sold in school gym. $8 per towel!
- Bouldering in SMU Gravical. Conquered a few routes ! Woohoo!
- Missed Wakiki! Bloody hell! Had individual presentation and class on that day
- Went to school from Monday to Saturday during mid term break (huh.. bReak? what break?)
- Confirmation of me being awarded of scholarship! The sum is quite a lot...God Bless!
- Internship have been "confirmed" in a way... just that details not in yet.
- Mid Term hell week ! That week wasn't in good mood.. feeling a bit of stress No... a bit sianness.. a bit of strain from the different things im involved in
- New Design assignment -> A cap for Janice's sister, Jeslyn and 2 tee for Jeslyn's friend. Still in process, must aim to complete within next 2 weeks!
- Finish my last class with Yusok Ishak sec ppl for this term. Will i still get to see them again???
- Have to attend Cousin's wedding tml... But gosh... I can't even remember when was the lasst time i spoke to him.. or did i ever spoke at all ?? hmm...
- Planning to be in school over the weekend. Because of open house and finance.. have to do financial analysis... Shitz!
- 5 modules, 5 projects, 5 reports, 5 submission, 5 datelines, 5 weeks to go!

Hee.. a brief summary of what happen to me for the last few weeks.
Still hoping to head back for training this coming monday, but psychologically, i have a bit afraid that my knee injury might return ...

Good things come, bad things come... As these things come and go, i must constantly remind myself to take in the good and cast away the bad...

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Home to Marine Parade - 01/02/09

Yesterday i did quite a feat... I decided to head down for a run...
However, this time i decided to take a different route. The running route behind my house was connected to the siglap park connector. This connector links all the way towards East Coast Park.

So at the moment, i thought why not... so off i went to a mini journey towards East Coast Park.. And my was i surprise how just running could bring me to.

In the end, i think clocked ard 7-8km to and fro... though i walk a bit (hey... very long nvr run so far liao ... )

Get a time i will run the opposite route towards the Bedok Park Connector... haha...

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Crappy Morning - 21/01/09

Today's morning didnt start off very well. How so...

Yesterday, I was already tired... from classes 830 to 330pm, i had to head down to ITE Simei for my duty for IVP floorball. It ended 9 plus, i reach home 10 plus and slept close to 1am. I had to prepare for today's morning plan...

Which is.. My first day at work! I had to go to Bukit Batok Sec ... as a trainer for sec 1 kids. I joined this company which had contracts with the school to teach these kids non-academic matters.

So 630am, i had to reach Bugis for my boss to pick me up. Guess what.. along the way... we were caught in traffic jam, kena stuck for almost an hour! Reaching the school late, what was lucky is that some delays on the school side, the class was sent back to wait too.

anyway, it was a short session where we had to conduct an activity - DISC personality tests for them. It went still quite well overall, though i would have prefered more time with the class.

Oh well... bcos of my tiredness, i had to almost drag myself back home... ALL THE WAY FROM BUKIT BATOK! oh gosh.. quite a torture...

Monday, January 12, 2009

Much to be proud though sad ending - 12/01/08

Tonight was the match for the girls against NTU... YEs, its like a rematch for the guys match...

The girls started the game with a high tempo... They chased every single ball with bravery and determination! Though NTU were the more skillful lot, the girls defended well and even took the lead through Tracy! Twice we lead, twice we lost the lead.

The first goal conceded was quite a freak goal. The shot by the NTU girl was deflected and actually flew over Shi hui's head. She was totally unsighted!

What's worse was the 3rd and crucial goal conceded by the girls. It was the dying seconds of the game when NTU did a line change and had 7 players on the court! Yes, by rules, 1 player should have gotten a 2 min sideline... SMU would be 1 player up and have a huge chance of winning it... However, no one sighted it... Not the referee, not the coach, not the match officials! and through that incident, NTU scored with 30 odd seconds left...

It was a cruel ending for the girls... But the whole lot of us were proud of their performance.. ! cos they played their hearts out!
Tml is the guys' last match and we have a very slim chance of actually qualifying...
whatever it is... i believe we would give it our best to show RP what's SMU are made of... !!!

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Interesting attire - 10/01/08

Today's class was interesting in some ways ... YES! i had class on saturdays... !
i got this World Travel & Tourism module. Well, the prof asked us... "so, why did u guys bidded for this module?" "What are you expected to gain out of it at the end of the module"... well, personally, i didnt really think much about it when i bidded for it seriously. I just thought it is an interesting module to take... and it really could expose me to another different matter.

anyway, what was interesting was the prof's attire today.... i dont know if its a marketing people kind of attire... but it is special...

2 different patterns... 1 pattern on his left side of his shirt and on his right sleeve... while the rest is covered with a 2nd pattern.
hard to describe... and didnt take any picture .. hha...

Friday, January 09, 2009

Win! - 09/01/08

Yes, a win! from SMU floorball ...
Apparently, it is the 1st win in like a few years for SMU in IVP...
It wasn't totally convincing, but I would say we really deserve the win...

Sch wise, well... it is still the first week...
but havent got into the school mood yet.. with the IVPs... and next week, there's still a new part time job im starting.. havent been posting my textbooks... havent been looking for new text... and there's assignment already!