to ponder...

strange to year bck ytd after not been there for quite some time.... but its good.... 6 more months or so, it will be my next leaving place.... as I see seniors who have to take key as per normal user, it came to me that it will also happen to me soon.... nice to see that they are still fine... even jackson is involve in training... can see he is enjoying what he is doing.... maybe just maybe, my path will be the same as him?

but have to settle the issue before me... nvr tot it can be quite a torture... on one hand, I enjoyed the people company, other than some... the environment is just some how not for me.... for once, my decisiveness have to stand.... however, to make it end well... tactful I must be....

face it, deal with it n move on....

weak wrist

wrist is recovering... hope I can train proper on Monday.... Thursday have to cone out another series of workout for e guys... have something on mind... hope the attendance would be good...

n Dar... I knw u will read... yes I love u so... no doubt abt it... didn't say thru phone... say here count ba... :p

Lesson learnt..

Never thought that I would Do such a thing, but I still did.... guess it was decisive part of me that gave me e courage to do so...

Anyway,it is a lesson learnt, knowing what ought to be more appropriate in e the future...

one n a half week to go, hope I can end it soon n leave in a good manner...

boo hoo hoo

hi my Dar Dar...
havent been here for damn long time...

other than Dar... don't think anyone else will cm in to read it...

boo hoo hoo

hi my Dar Dar...
havent been here for damn long time...

other than Dar... don't think anyone else will cm in to read it...

Internship / Take Term Off - 13/11/09

Saw a internship posts that looks very tempting for me to apply...

but the key is... i have to take the term off...

Should I .. or should I not???
hmmm....

Game won 1.5 week ago - 3/11/09

Delayed post yet again...

Was glad that our last game was a victory and kept us back in Div 2 next year.
Also more satisfying is my contribution to the team - 2 goals 3 assist...

that should mark my best game in terms of points scoring thus far in my career...
That being said, after which, the following week was back to business in school with 3 presentation per day for 3 days...

Fast and Furious? well.. not really... surprisingly, it was quite ok in the end... or at least i felt quite ok... maybe i learn how to cope the stress better as my time in SMU goes by... and usually when this happens, it kinda mark the start of my boredom...

This character in me of searching new challenges in life i guess... once i get used to something, i will feel bored and hope to escape it and seek new challenges...

As the terms closes in, ought to also note i will have 2 sems to go... that's quite soon... so meaning, the next challenge to come is my first formal career...
HR generalist or Training and development or simply my random thinking of freelancing?

Thats probably the next agenda coming up once the term ends...
More to tackle is FIC - Fitness Instructor Course... maybe NCAP too?

Reflections - 24/10/09

Time to a bit of reflection before my game at TSH later...
The past week was tiring... Everyday from monday to thursday it has been early morning till 11pm in school... Classes, project meeting, gym work and training...

Ytd was a bit lucky to be back at home by 7plus... but was partially frustrated by my grandma... nvm.. that's a small matter...

but anyway... a thought came to me ytd...
what happens if u see yourself in another person...
that the person is doing/reacting something similar to what u do at home...
u know it is not good.. and have been trying to avoid it...
Do u say " good... there's someone like me... i am right... "
or "yup, that's how bad i was... i better get my act together soon... "

time for the last game of the season later... it is really make or break...
can't imagine the team will be playing in a lower league next year...
that being said... i have given my all already during this period since IVP...
i have seen improvement in myself, though isnt as big as in the past...
so personally, i would praise myself for it... or at least to make myself feel better....
let's hope the team today can gel for the 3 periods... for those on and off the court...
hearts a like... like ONE... into the main goal of winning the game... !

Other than that, i guess, i have also learnt how to calm/relax and take a back seat at times to look my situation on an even more braoder perspective... seeing myself burnout and other friends around me "dying"... i really feel sad... and tragic to think is this what life is about? there should be an even better/higher level to achieve or attain... it is not just working so hard just to tire your body out ... and left with no one to share to...

continue.. .continue to reflect...

Unknown Injury, Mystified - 19/10/09

Woke up One morning to realise i got a wrist injury out of nowhere...
Did not know what happen to it cos the night before sleeping, it was totally fine...

Can't bend or rotate fully with ease... been persisting for a couple of days..

Saturday is last game of season... suck.. will i make it?
wrist will be wrapped a bit for the next couple of days...
A hopefully prayer ...

PlainDirtTired - 07/10/09

Little did i realised beforehand that i will going to be in school for 17 hours straight... from 620am till 1145pm... wht the freak!

Duty, floorball, studying...
i am freaky tired...
and duty again later...
almost brain dead... Arghh....

Difference or not? - 03/10/09

Guys think things logically ...
Girls think things emotionally...

What happens when guys become too logical?
Girls may think they are insensitive to feelings, uncaring and probably inhumane

What happens when girls become too emotional?
Guys may think they are wilful, totally illogically and probably senseless

Irony but true...
Difference there is...
Permanent solution there may be not, but yet there is...
What it takes is probably the acceptance of both for both...

Can i ? Should I? - 07/09/09

A random comment by Hussein ytd caught me thinking...

he was encouraging me to tryout div 1 next year... hmm...
Can i raise my game to that level?
Should I give it a try?

That's something i will probably think about in the upcoming months ahead...

Still Juggling - 07/09/09

wow... since my last post, it has been 3 weeks gone!

Now in week 4 of the term, yes ... i feel time reali flies again... darn...
Mid term, projects, and presentations coming up ! Shitz!!!

But anyway, glad to score 2 goals ytd and got the first win of the season... ^^
Keep it up !

I'm feeling the shackness already - 18/08/09

2nd day of school and im slowly feeling the shackness already... haha...

Very glad that i took this module, Training and Development.
From the 1st lesson today, Prof have already given me different insights of what i have experience beforehand. Do look forward to learn more from the class and Prof...

Woohoo!

Training later...

Sucky Game - 16/07/09

Today was first game of floorball Div 2 league.
Damn sucky performance today...

Tml first day of term
suck too!

Words - 07/08/09

Words through a person's mouth can be nice and can be hmm... not so nice...

Often, when it is spoken, is it just a casual remark or an underlying meaning to it?

Oh well... ignoring maybe the best solution afterall...

5 hours of sleep - 07/08/09

Its been a long time since i last time will be sleeping only 5 hours or less

Gosh... 12am and Im still up...
later 5am plus must get up for gym work lo...

Back but alone... - 01/08/09

Im Back to gym to work...
1st August 7am... but guess what... Im alone here!!!
Argh....

secret's out - 30/07/09

The "secret" is out.. and i am a relieved son.. haha...

^^
what's to come in the near future?
who knows... whatever.. just deal with it... keke..

Quotes - 28/07/09

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch with them.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. HE can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful. Learn to share or let go.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take NO for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. TODAY is special.
22. Over prepare everything you do, then, go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words, ''In 5 years, will this matter?"
27. Always choose LIFE.
28. Forgive everyone everything, because no one is perfect, not even you.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood – make sure you are there for most of it.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved even if you were not loved in return.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile & saw everyone else's, we'll grab ours back in an instant.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. YIELD.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a GIFT